February Athlete of the Month
Iâ€™m Desiree Lucero-Walker (most of you know me as that child care lady) and I am thrilled and still in shock that I was chosen to be Athlete of the Month. My response was, â€œHuh?â€Â Â I honestly donâ€™t think I have ever been publicly recognized for ANYTHING.Â Â Iâ€™m just going to be real and honest. Iâ€™m just going to be me. Exactly the way we WOD…Crazy face and all.
My journey with physical fitness and clean eating started with a pageant.Â Â Â Ah, the pageant life. I wanted to get over my insecurities and self-worth issues and also face public speaking. I wanted to learn to love me and make some friends in the process. But the truth is that during pageant prep what you are striving for is to be is â€œbetterâ€ than the next girl. NO BUENO. Â
Fast forward to Marriage, 2 babies, and a PCS move. I guess I figured, new city, new people eh, no one to impress.Â Â Nobody knows me and I felt guilty working out and being away from the babies. Â At 5â€™3â€ and 190 lbs. my health and body was taking a toll.Â Â I was always tired. Â I lacked energy. I was over eating. I remember having trouble tying my shoes.Â Â I remember thinking what in the world is this on the back of my arms and legs? I rememberÂ Â breathing heavily walking to my car in the parking lot. Truth is, I had given up.Â Â On me.Â Â Â Â Then I saw a picture.Â Â A picture of my sweet 9 month old baby boy covered in food with me in the background washing dishes.Â Â â€œWho was that woman washing dishes yesterday?â€ I asked my husband. That day I decided to find another personal trainer.
Iâ€™ll never forget the day I went to meet my new trainer. To be quite honest, I asked about child care and that is what sold me.Â Â I had no idea he was a Crossfit coach.Â Â I entered the address on the GPS and when I arrived I thought, um, I think Iâ€™m lost.Â Â It was an old warehouse in the back of the historic city of Lawton, Oklahoma.Â Â Â I took a deep breath and thought, I guess this is it. I walked inside, both kids in tow. Â No machines. Just weights and contraptions hanging from ceiling rafters.Â Â Ropes, tires, white powdery substance sprinkled across the floor and a huge open â€œchildroomâ€ amidst it all.Â Â I thought, for sure Iâ€™m gonna die.Â Â They are gonna kill me and keep the kidsâ€¦â€¦But I survived.Â
I joined Solafide in March 2013. Ever since I have forgotten about the scale. Â Iâ€™ve cried throughout a WOD, the tears just blend with all the sweat dripping down my crazy face.Â Â Ugly face, no. CF scary face.Â Â That face you get when you are trying to kill that inner voice that says you canâ€™t.Â Â Iâ€™ve been extremely depressed throughout a WOD, hot mad throughout a WOD, extremely happy throughout a WOD, felt like I wanted to die throughout a WOD and wondered what tomorrows WOD will be throughout a WOD. And after it all, I walk out of that box feeling great. People have said to me Crossfit is so Dangerous. Â If you don’t CrossFit … you just don’t get it. You cannot live in Fear but rather by Faith. Faith in yourself, knowingÂ Â that you are making the right decisions. Only you know how far you can push your body, when to rest and when to stop. Â Back in Lawton, I was too shy to join the classes. I only worked one on one with a coach.Â Â Boy was I missing out.Â Â Â
Crossfit Solafide is amazing and I am proud to be on that white board. I started with the Endurance classes everyday and went to every single Free Community WOD they offered until an OnRamp became available. After On Ramp I joined the All Women’s Classes. Although I had experienced Crossfit before, this place was different.Â Â I saw a community of female athletes, most with kids in tow, that showed up bare faced in anything stretchy ready to work and work hard. Raw, Real women.Â Â No fancy clothes or makeup to hide behindâ€¦ just a woman.Â Â A woman like me! A mom like me!!
Before joining CrossFit I didn’t have a lot of confidence. I have always been socially awkward. I hated working out. I was always too intimidated to go to the gyms. The people and all those machines were confusing unless my trainer was present.Â I would go and end up on the treadmill for 2 hours. Â I thought anything over 107 on the scale was a tragedy. I felt my worth was in my previous size 0 jeans and I was depressed over not being able to squeeze into them anymore. Â
I love Crossfit because although you still belong to a group of people whom share common attitudes, interests and goals, you are striving to be better than YOURSELF. Better than YOU were yesterday. Â I love the Fellowship. Â I love the Crossfit community.Â Â No matter where in the world you may be, any Crossfit athlete will encourage you and uplift you 200 percent.Â Â During a WOD everyone is working toward the same goal.Â Â Finishing the WOD.
I do Crossfit because it takes me out of my comfort zone.Â Â I can honestly say that every single woman that I have WODed with keeps me motivated. Motivated to make healthy choices and try my best at life.Â Â Â I know that without these ladies I could not have come this far in actually sticking to this crazy workout routine.Â Â I can now say Iâ€™m a stay at home mother proudly without feeling ashamed about not holding a “Real” career.Â Â Â Thank you Ladies!!!Â Â I actually WANT to go to the box 5 days a week.Â Â As I grow into adulthood Iâ€™ve come to realize that goals change.Â Â Life changes.Â Â Kids happen.Â Â Â With hubby serving the country, Iâ€™m often alone.Â Â I canâ€™t wait on him to help me get things done. I canâ€™t always call on someone to help me so I needed to up the ante for me. For my kids. For my husband. I need to be able to hold down the fort.Â Â I may not be a size zero anymore but I can Snatch a chest of drawers, Walk it to my truck, Load it and Unload it …All by Myself.Â
They say in your 30s you learn all about lifeâ€™s lessons. Â One of the richest lessons that I will always hold dear to my heart is get the “I CAN’T” out of your vocabulary. Crossfit taught me that lesson.Â Â Â All those movements I watched in awe when I first walked into Solafide I said I canâ€™t doâ€¦. Yeah. I may not have sixpack abs but you better believe that I can knock out those GHD and Ab Mat WODs quickly and correctly. I can snatch 80 lbs. I can Run a 5k. I can deadlift 210lbs. I can Squat for days. I can Clean 120lbs, I can Flip Tires, I can do Pushups, I can Climb a Rope,Â Â I can pick up a 95# Atlas Stone, I can Fireman carry my husband out of a burning building. Okay maybe thatâ€™s a little dramatic but I know I can carry him if I ever needed to.Â Â I can play with my kids and not get winded. I can now be a role model for my kids.Â Â I can love myself for who I am and what I look like.Â Â I do love myself. Â Thanks to my Coaches and thanks to my SolaFide Sisters!!